Thank You

Final thoughts on a Friday

So I have been in an orientation class all day today so this blog is going to be short. And its Friday. Everything should be shorter and easier on a Friday J

I want to thank everyone for the responses this week. The love and support you have shown Erin and my mom after reading the posts has been amazing. I can honestly and will admittedly say that I have created a living hell for all those people who have cared about me the most. They always say you hurt the most, those closest to you. I have proved that 1000 times over. I have also received feedback and answers from both my Dad and my sister however both have asked me to keep them confidential. I am respecting their requests. I will say they were not easy to read. I asked for honesty, and I got it. Seeing how different people are handling this whole situation has been interesting. It has also been very painful. Its hard to hear about the ways you hurt those that care about you the most. It is hard to read the comments that people write that say stuff like “I wish I would have known so I could have been there for you” or “I am soo sorry for saying this, or doing that, or not being here when you were in the midst of this” … NONE of you owe any form of apologies. You would have NEVER known. I kept everything in. Nothing is anybody’s fault.  So please promise me that none of you feel bad for anything you did or felt like you could have done differently. I am doing everything in my power to focus straight ahead. Looking back will do nothing but send me into a backwards spiral. One foot in front of the other. I am tackling each day, each step, each emotion, each meal, each person one at a time. So once again… thank you for your support. But more importantly thank you for showing so much care and love to my family and Erin. They need and deserve it more than I do. They are all wonderful. I am so truly blessed. Keeping that in mind is what keeps my chin up and eyes on the horizon.