Roller Coaster!

Roller Coaster!

So as we all know yesterday I had a pretty good day. Of course there was a blip of time when I thought I spoke too soon. For some odd reason I got in a rather down and depressed mood yesterday afternoon. I stopped by my father-in-laws golf course and hit a bucket a balls to enjoy the weather. I was really excited about it all day. So I did it. I tend to get these sweet ideas and then never follow through with them so I was proud of myself for actually going and doing something instead of just going home. But for some odd reason I got there and just felt like crap. I didn’t even hit that bad considering I pretty much never play golf. I do remember that I started to feel slightly nauseous and I have no idea why. I just had this overwhelming crappy feeling which really sucked because I was looking forward to the driving range. Anyway…. Erin came straight home since she is still pretty sick. I picked up dinner at Burrito Perdido over off Cedar Rd. Cool little place. Anyway as the night went on I began to feel better. Erin and I had shared some good conversations. We talked a lot about my next phase in this fitness journey. I am seriously considering trying Crossfit. Yes. I know its expensive. Yes. I know it is intense. But it is something I have been wanting to do for over a year and I feel like I am almost ready to try it. This is another one of those things that I have always talked about, always wanted to try, and always never followed through. Remember I am a dreamer… then a quitter. I never follow through with my dreams or things I want. I always find some reason to convince myself that I shouldn’t or cant do something and hold myself back. So we talked about that for while and she told me she fully supports me and anything I want to do as long as my eating changes and everything else continues to improve. She really is wonderful. Anyway so yah I have no idea why the one thing I was planning on doing yesterday for fun… ended up being a bust and put me in a bad mood?! Was it because I was by myself? Was it just because the out-of-nowhere nausea feelings? It was just bizarre because I started feeling better as soon as I got home. One more random note and then its time for the Thomas Jefferson Hour on NPR… my favorite radio hour of the week! … but today during the first part of lunch I sat outside in our courtyard and just sketched a picture of our gazebo. Drawing puts me in a good mood I decided. Especially while sitting outside when its sunny and 77!!!

SO to wrap this up today… I wanted to touch on one more thing. I went back and reviewed the previous blogs. I am kind of struggling right now with finding anything “eating disorder” related to write about. Probably part of this is due to the fact that these last days have been really good. I almost am hesitant to bring it back up and explore more things while I am going through this positive time. So as things pop into my brain I will continue to explore and write about them but for now I am going to be focusing on the positive things in life and try and keep the momentum going! So if you find any of this boring and not what it used to be then I apologize. I plan to keep writing though. I am sure there will be many more ups and downs to explore…