Live life to the fullest

Perspective

Today I am giving therapy a second shot. I am looking forward to it. Now that I alteast have some sort of idea on what to expect I am a little more comfortable this time around. I still has a bit of an anxiety attack if you will last night around dinner time. I still ate it. And ate dessert. But it is tough. I have to really force myself to eat them and force myself to remember… you ENJOY this food! It tastes good. Its still healthy. Your not sitting down at dinner all of a sudden this month bingeing on pounds of chicken wings and Chinese food, and ribs and cheese fries. You will be fine. It helps when I am busy. The more time I have where I don’t have anything to do after work or nothing planned the harder I have to work to not think about food and calories and not going to the gym this month and gaining weight. So… CALL US TO HANG OUT J

Anyway… all that has sparked some thought. Hearing some stories about a mission’s trip to Lesotho that 2 of my good friends just got back from made me really consider some stuff. I do not have problems. Well… sorta. I do have some mental issues I need to work through. But they are fixable. Some of these people in Lesotho… they have problems. They aren’t always sure if/when/from where there next meal is going to come from. They don’t know what they might encounter on there 4 mile daily journey to get WATER. Hungry Lion? Poisonous Snake? Tribal Enemy? All to get WATER TO SURVIVE. How dare we sit around and complain. The other day I was upset because my Ipad was dead and I wanted to read something and my phones screen was just too small. WTF. Are you kidding me. There have been times when I was working on my something on my Macbook, listening to music on my Ipad, and texting friends on my Iphone. And yet I still find things to complain and whine about. I still get down on myself for stupid insignificant things. In some ways I envy those people. They have an incredibly hard and miserable life at time but also so remarkably simple. They have nothing. Yet they praise God and worship him 10x harder then I do when im sitting in my air conditioned church drinking my free coffee. I have a wonderful life. I am blessed beyond measure. Yet I take advantage of it all. i/we have come to expect these luxuries. I have so much to be thankful for. I find myself sitting around all grumpy and upset about not being able to work out or mad because I cant eat what and when I want to and yet I fail to look around and see all the amazing things in life. Last night I just stood on my front porch and watched the sunset. Such an amazing and simple act that brought so much more joy in those 3 minutes then any facebook game or tv show. This morning on my walk the sunlight is starting to show a little towards the last 5 minutes or so. The colors, the way they illuminate the clouds, God’s paintbrush is remarkable. I think we all need to stop. Take some time. Reflect and acknowledge all the simple things in life. The stuff we don’t have control over. The stuff that literally like clockwork… happens everyday and we ignore it. I don’t care what kind of day you are having if you actually stop and watch the sunset go through each one of its “stages” it will make you feel better. You know all the yellows, then orange, then pinks, then reds, sometimes purples…. Its amazing. No wonder some of these tribal people or remote poor villages have the strength to worship God the way they do. They pay attention to these spectacular things that God creates. They don’t get bogged down in the spoils of life that we have. When you go to bed does that TV show really bring you joy? Or did sitting on the beach or a mountain with some friends just doing nothing but taking creation all in, did that bring you Joy? I bet you remember that longer.

My mission and goal for this next phase of my life as I continue to heal is to enjoy all things. The little things. Live life to the fullest. WHO CARES what time dinner is or if I did 10 or 100 squats at the gym. They are insignificant. I want to love all things. I want to SHOW love to all things and all people. Especially my beautiful amazing wife who I have put on a back burner to all other things for so long. God created an amazing world and gave us life. Time to experience it.