Update.
3 years ago today I asked Erin to be my wife. We were
standing there watching the planes take-off and land at the airport… actually
watching my parents plane take off on their way to Massachusetts. I actually didn’t
really have a plan. Typically how I do things. Not really that I didn’t have a
plan… or want to have a plan… but like many other areas or situations in my
life I wanted it to be so nice and so perfect that I gave up even trying for
fear of not succeeding. So I just went ahead and kept the ring on me… and
figured an opportunity might present itself. It did. And it was a cool/cute/hilarious
story. Anyway… you really just never know how life is going to turn out. One thing
that is for sure… God is good and he definitely provides. I asked Erin to marry
me before I even had a job! We were both in school and looking back I would
have told myself it was a bit too early because finances were tough for a
while. But I think it set us up to be very financially responsible now and we
learned some good lessons. Sometimes you wish you had a crystal ball to show
you exactly how things are going to turn out to make sure your ready.
Unfortunately or maybe fortunately?... we don’t. So we gotta be ready for
anything. Life is an adventure. You wake up and just gotta face what comes at
you. You just never know. We never knew that for the better part of our first
two years of marriage we would be dealing with some incredibly difficult issues
that NOBODY wants to have to deal with in the honeymoon phase. Life if supposed
to be fun, spontaneous and exciting during this point… not dark, boring and
emotional. I would bet Erin didn’t really want to have to deal with this. And she
has. Which is why I love her and know without a shadow of a doubt… she’s the
one. Many women in today’s world would have left me a LONG time ago. Not Erin.
She is amazing. The good thing is… life is turning around. We had a nice date-day
on Saturday where we went to Williamsburg and we(Erin) hit the outlets. I will
say… I was a well behaved husband and took advantage of the beautiful sunny day
and gratefully sat on the benches and got a nice tan and never complained once!
We had a fantastic dinner at Food For Thought. Neither of us had ever been
there before and after an hour wait… it turned out to be totally worth it. Freaking
delicious! Sunday we went to a beautiful wedding at the Founders Inn. And thank
goodness we found a TV that had the Masters on! Got to enjoy the wedding, and
see Bubba win… GREAT DAY. However I think the best part about the day was the
relationships we got to develop. The couple getting marries lives in the Condo
unit directly behind us and we go to church together. We are all part of a
newly/nearly married Life Group at church and a few of the other couples were
invited to the wedding as well and building these new relationships with other
couples in the same phase of life as us, has been hugely beneficial and we absolutely
adore these new friends. Sunday was a good day. Saturday was a good day.
Friday? Hahah well… Friday was a good day to… except for
softball really sucked. First of all we lost both games by the slaughter rule…
secondly… I just did not have fun! I forgot how much I don’t like baseball/softball.
I am not 100% sure im going to keep playing… we have enough people on the team
that we had to rotate each inning, and for both games we had enough people to
create 2 batting line ups. Not fun… and not trying to give up my Friday nights
for the next 9 weeks.
But… all that to be said… Life if getting much better. I am learning
and putting into practice many good lessons. First of all… I have learned that
it is hard to really love others, when you don’t love yourself. So I have been
actively trying to “love myself” and keep postitive thoughts, and it is
actually working as I feel like I am finding it much easier to love others. I’m
enjoying my workouts again, enjoying my food, enjoying church, enjoying my
friends and stuff Erin and I have been doing. I have also been dreaming a lot lately.
Not the dreams that you have while you are sleeping, but dreaming about things I
want to achieve. Dreaming about potential. Dreaming about life and pursuit of
happiness. Had an interesting “conversation” with someone I look up to very
much recently and it has really got me thinking about things. Cant really go
into too many details on this one just yet. But as much as I have enjoyed the hopes
and dreams I am also remembering to live, love and take in the present and
enjoy Today without worrying too much about tomorrow.
So ya everything is good and I am looking forward to this
new phase of me that is starting to show signs of life.
And of course happy “engangement” anniversary to my lovely
wife J
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