Interpretation

Interpretation  

One of the biggest things I struggle with in my walk with God is trying to interpret his will. Two contradicting thoughts always plague my brain.

1.       On one hand…. I feel like the feelings, callings, passions, fires that I experience in my heart are hints at what I am supposed to be doing. We are told that we are to follow God’s will and the purpose he has given us. This is usually found through feelings and passions that have been laid on our hearts. These aren’t those “I feel like I should drive a Ferarri” thoughts, they are the “I feel like I am being called to serve a greater/different/specific purpose in life. I feel like God has put me through situation A,B and C for a reason and he is trying to tell me something or point me towards my calling.

2.       Then there is that whole mind set that says…. “God puts you right where you are and puts you through everything you’ve been through for a very specific purpose so sit back and let go of the reigns… He’s got this”. So when you experience those deep feelings, tugs, passions on your heart… are you supposed to act? Wouldn’t you think God would have put you in those situations if you really truly feel like its where you are supposed to be?

So I find myself in a constant state of hesitation and doubt and confused whether or not to act upon those feelings…. Or sit back and just remain where I am because “I am where I am supposed to be”. Surely when the timing is right it will work out. But how do you know if those feelings inside are YOUR feelings or God speaking to you? When is a selfish desire or a divine calling? Obviously this is where fervent prayer comes into play. But even then… you’ve been praying and praying and praying for guidance and direction and things start lining up or happening out of the blue… what do you do? I find it so easy to write those bizarre out-of-nowhere occurrences off as “coincidence”. Do you really hear God’s voice saying “GO” or is that your own voice? We all know that nowhere in the Bible does it really ever say that following God’s plan will be happy go lucky all the time or easy to do, easy to see, easy to follow… but sometimes its hard to accept that God would put you through stuff sometimes when it truly makes you miserable. That feeling of hopelessness or misery… is that just us being selfish and wanting to go off and follow our own plan?.... or is that God telling you “ YOUR NOT WHERE YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE….WAKE UP AND LOOK AT ALL THOSE “COINCIDENCES” AND TAKE A HINT!!!”.

I would love some feedback on this one and hear what other people believe, have done, experienced or handled these situations in their own lives.

Dear God,

You are great. You have brought me through every single storm ive encountered in life and each time I have come out on top. You have yet to leave me or forget about me. I love you. I don’t deserve your grace or mercy. I ask that you place your will and your desires on my heart and show me the way. I am ready to let everything go and walk in any direction you lead. All I need is a nudge, a hint, a door to crack open and I am ready. I know I can’t do anything with your guidance and strength. I am ashamed because so many times in my life ive gone out and done what I thought was right or go out about something alone…. With the notion that I am capable on my own. No more.

Also please be with our friend Casby as she is about to give birth to her first child with a husband out on deployment.

Please bless my good friend Ben with a job once finished with school

Please be with a friend’s wife as she is in intensive care in the hospital

Please me with on of our very good friends going through a bumpy marriage phase.

Be with my family as they look to the future to make some pretty big decisions and with my sister as she begins new life change.

And finally please be with Erin and her little students as they prepare to take the SOL tests this month. This is the most stressful month in a teacher’s life so please just comfort them.

Thanks and I love You.

Amen.